Thursday, May 20, 2010

我们。之间

今天是5月20号

520=我爱你

情侣们都会告诉对方这个数字

只有 我们两个

我们两个在一起

其实 真的 很开心

还以为 找到一段成熟的恋爱

会持久一些些

最后

还是被我搞砸了

第38 天,第40 天和第42天

我们都有小吵

其中 双方其实都有错

可是 我认为我的罪多过于你的

每一次我都道歉

尽量挽留你

一次。。一次。。又一次。。。

只因为 我爱你

就如我所说

你是 我用心爱过的

第二个人

就在第44天

我只是因为告诉你我的想法

闹到我们不愉快

你说了这一句

“我开始觉得累了”

当下 我傻了

急了。。

我猛道歉

我那时心里只是想

不要离开我

可是 在你说出这一句话

“我们暂时不要联络对方,可能是几天。。”

我眼泪流了下来

我很坚强的

也很勉强的

打出了这一行字

“不要紧,我会等。。那么久我都等了,区区几天,我不能等吗”

其实 我真的不能

不能够一天没有你

那天 我哭了

我找姐姐 哭了半小时 诉苦

后来回房间 哭了半小时

我roomate都吓着了

之后 停了一年多的气喘

突如其来的爆发

我的gas没有了

身上没有药物

我roomate不知怎么办

当下

我什么都不想

我只想到

“我,会就这样走了吗??”

“我,现在好想看看你,抱抱你。。就算走了,我也没有任何遗憾。。”

短短的气喘

两分钟多

我坚持着呼吸

气管收缩

我只能吸进微量的气

大脑开始空白

眼睛模糊

就要倒下去了

我坚持着 一直想

如果我这样走了 你会生气

以为我做傻事

后来 我做到了

慢慢 我呼吸到了

可是

那个时候 我已经倒在床上了

慢慢的

模糊的眼睛 开始看得比较清楚

我好想告诉你

可是

我没有

因为我知道

告诉你

只会令你觉得 我更烦

不知道的人

会以为 是什么激将法

我选择 自己收着 不说

那天起 我开始不习惯

早上 原本的morning call 没有了

下午 交代你喝水照顾自己 没有了

6点 你放工 信息你问候你 没有了

七点到家 msn 找你 不敢 没有了

晚上临睡前 信息你call你 没有了

一整天 电话静静的 呆在口袋

几天都是这样

然后 因为生病 身体开始

一天比一天觉得虚弱

你问我怎么了

我说fine

其实

那个时候

我好想告诉你

我刚刚在楼梯口

因为看不清楚

踏错格子

跌倒了

当时 我哭了

不是因为痛

而是

我没有做好 照顾自己的本份

后来我自己去clinic检查

报告也出来了

后来

开始 功课也多了

也开始接到通告

拍戏

以前我问你

你到底爱不爱我

你毫不犹豫的回答 “当然爱啊”

可是 如果现在 我问你多一次

你到底爱不爱我

这次的答案或许会是

“我不懂”

因为 每一次的吵架 每一次我的任性 每一次我们闹到不愉快

我在你心中的地位和形象就会被影响

慢慢的 慢慢的

你可能就会开始问你自己

到底是不是还爱我

今天 是我们没有联络的第6天了

一天一天就这样

过去了

我开始不哭了

开始想通了

或许爱情

真的是盲目地吧

爱一个人 不一定要在一起

我开始学会知足

只要那个人开心 健康 顺利

我其实也就很满足了

如果

你不爱我了

你爱到累了

你不想爱了

你可以放弃我

我不会强求

我说过

我不会放弃你

我会一直爱你

只有你有放弃我的权利

现在 掌握权就在你手上

我会一直默默地等

知道

你给我知道

你要的 结果 是什么。。



我爱你


By 爱你的 猫

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Talk about Recently







there are quite a lot of activities and things happened recently

busy for presentation and assignment

prepare for Cheng's Birthday

steamboat a.k.a farewell party for Teck Hau

Problem about those new intake MLVK sttudent

quite a lot

Cheng's birthday

we surprisely celebrate it for him

Hope and wish him health and wealth

Teck Hau farewell party

honestly

I am not realy happy about that

I know I will become damn sad and bored

if he left

Anyway

Thanks him for everything he done and every memory he gave us

Thanks Tack Hau

Problem about those new intake MLVK sttudent

the new intake student of MLVK

Gilbert,Ken and Jian

they were room D student

after they appear

SOMEONE less mix with us already

but

It does not matter

unfortunately

they argued

they said they can not mix well

can not bear each other

I just don't want to care so much about them

but as a bystander

three of them also have their own problem

but just because of Gilbert and Ken keep influencing other of them

so that all people just set a negative image for Jian (as they name him as KL people)

other than that

not only Jian

even ME

also think that

there's communication problem between me and them

especially someone (i don't want to mentioned him)

i don't know is it the reason he did not meet with the public before this

he just keep blaming other people and not to think about his own BAD

so rude and so stubborn

I hate this kind of people

they think they was the best and they just see other's wrong and mistake but not

themselves

so that's why I told myself not to mix them that much

for both of us good

that's the best way

to prevent arguement
then these day BB quite busy about working matter

BB was busy

but still accompany me

Muackzzz

Love BB..




Thursday, April 8, 2010

你知道我有多爱你吗??



四月一号
愚人节
我们在吵吵闹闹的情况下
在一起的

本来说要放弃任何对你的感情的
你一直都在说需要时间
我只好放手
可是

终于听到你的暗示说
“你都不确定爱不爱我,我哪里敢告诉你啊我爱你呢”

没错
你就是这样告诉我的

真的很开心
也很担心
愚人节

你会不会玩我呢?
第二天
你开始比较关心我了
比较疼我了
爱上你

我不后悔
今天是我们在一起的第八天了
那天我们吵架了
为了了一只hamster
至于为什么
就不说了
只是
那是我哭到气喘
找药的时间

撞到头

割到手
后来你很紧张
很担心
一直哄我
我不想因为这样的事情

闹到不开心
我克制自己
不要生气
不要闹
原谅你

因为
我爱你
我不希望就这样斩断我们的爱情
bibi
我会改

你说
“坏习惯就要改”
我有
我很努力
我答应你会开开心心过每一天
会好好照顾自己
因为

我还要照顾你这个大头虾
也因为
我爱你
bibi
muackzz


Wednesday, March 31, 2010

A page...only...for you...



Today what I want to write about is just for someone..

Two years ago

1st of December

we broke up

the reason you gave me is

My thinking was too childish

You need an Strong arm to rely on too sometimes

and You had chosen another guy

that work with u at MC cafe

I won't forget about it..

these day think about you

and a lot of memory between us

how we go shopping at Bugis

how we kiss each other

that was such a nice memory for me

last year

I still can't let YOU out of my mind

everytime I saw your picture with Jason

My anger cames up

BURNED and BURST

I cried

on my friends Birthday party

I still remember that day

31st of August 2009

after day and day

I almost forgotten You

In your mind

I am still a small little child

U act me as your son(干儿子in mandarin)

honestly

after break

we didn't chat a lot

I always go see your status on facebook, friendster,and MSN

All the day you wrote all about how you miss him

that time my heart so pain

once upon a time

you were mine

you always care about me

but

that time all off your mind was just him

Time past by

these day

I just realize that

finally I can just left you

I can still live without you

although I am still that bad in facing study or those coursemates

but I learned to be tough

just like what you always tell me

"Don't always cry,be a tough boy okay?"

I had grown up

as I said

"No One see my serious face before,if anyone saw it once,they will remember ever"

Its true

I am not that childish

but

just to be more close to friends only

if what time I started to be serious

I think mostly all of my friends will hate me because of

I am too fierce

><

anyway

I just saw your new facebook

quite OK

but

I decided not to add you

just because

now days

we become more and more unfamiliar

just like stranger

Its ok

I didn't blame you

same as Ray

don't Know start from what time

we didn't contact each other already

sometimes

I miss that time we chat together

but I know

what had past

will not be back again

what can I do is

appreciate my life

study hard

and

live happily

I promise for myself

NO MORE REGRET IN MY LIFE

^^

hope you have a nice day always

HUGZ





This Is The FIRST Bearbrick YOU bought for me..Remember??

Thx



Kit Zai

___We ♥ & Funk__ The Source Of Georgetown City Lockers (Island Funky Town)





-A dance and develop a source of Georgetown City Lockers :

-In a which college from dance society, since we form a this group lockers when we learn to meet everyone know to each others..

This story book is like this:
Inspired by a dream which we
A book home first side of the story of life began to dance ^^

- We sincerely want to keep locking in Penang Lockers gradually carried forward, while respecting all over the world lockers ^^

Always a student, Never a master = )

一个舞蹈和发展乔治敦市处来源:

在一个社会,从某间学院舞蹈学会,因为我们形成了这一群 Locker舞团 就让我们懂得珍惜大家跳舞在一起的时候..就这样大家认识到每个人 = )

这个故事就是这样:
启发大家梦想里面
一本书里首页第一面舞蹈生活故事的开始^^
- 我们真诚地希望留在槟城处把Locking渐发扬光大,而世界各地的Lockers 互相学习..彼此尊重 =)

Dynamic -联威-
-Representing:
-The Founder/ Director Of S.C.T Production
-The Founder of Georgetown City Lockers

Your Support Is Driving Our Power & Strength
-您的支持是我们的动力和力量-

感谢 = )
Thank you =

Friday, March 26, 2010

云顶。朋友


一段时间没有update部落格了Add Image
这次的放假
过得其实还不错
虽然下礼拜还是放假
可能会去cameron highland
昨天才从云顶回来
一次的云顶团
让我真的轻松不少
整个人很放松
很疯狂
很自在


也可以看得出
我朋友对我的好
我在不舒服的时候
他们看得出
(平时的那些所谓朋友,眼睛根本就是瞎的)
然后问长问短
感动

然后晚上玩累了
没有多余的钱了
他们买了很多蛋糕
由于打折扣加买一送一
每个人都买了好多
我肚子那时候真的很饿
饿到想哭
想吃杯面的时候
他们回来了
手上拿着玲玲种种的蛋糕
然后毫不犹豫的说分我吃
那个时候我其实真的很感动
那时候的蛋糕
有一种说不出来的味道
我也说了一句话
“认识你们,我没有后悔。。”
不知道他们可听的见??

然而
有些事情我也不计较
人家对你好
你不知道
只会想到自己
不会顾别人想法
至于发生什么事情
我也不多说
只是
如果某人再这样下去的话
怎么好看都不会有人喜欢
这次我学会的是这个
然后是
这次的旅行
真的很开心
第一次跟朋友上云顶
做导游
带朋友吃喝
玩乐
呵呵
outdoor玩到很癫
坐过山车,旋转杯子,火龙,飞椅子等等。。

还看了一部4D电影
其实还不错
graphic很美一下咯

这次的团是我办的
找旅行社
收钱
买东西(杯面汽水)
上巴士
开酒店房间
outdoor
4D电影票
吃东西
几乎都是我一手包办
还蛮开心的
我个人认为这次的云顶团
很成功

以下是各个旅行团的游客

Kit
庆
Sean
Adam
德豪
Jason
Jenson
Eva
Ken
宇衡
Littleting
Vicky

下次说好再一起去玩哦
最后我只想说
认识你们
我没有后悔
谢谢你们